Moncure Daniel Conway, Diary, 1851-1853, MC 1999.6, Moncure Daniel Conway Family Papers, Archives and Special Collections, Dickinson College, Carlisle, PA, p. 99-100.
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14. Went to Jeff. Wrote a Letter to Uncle T; also an Art. on Children; Novalis &c. During these quiet days to myself I had much reflection to myself. It is an awful thought but true that I am not representing a Faith I know to be untrue! I have written to my father telling him of it. I am not determined to leave the Church in March. But O God shall my life be false till then. Yet what can I do. I never say anything that is untrue. And if I thought that my remaining a Meth. Would make one more Orthodox I wouldn't remain a day. Lord! Then seest me: before Thee I stand or fall.