20. Went to Jeff. Received a Letter from Ma that fills me with sadness. She says she apprehends dropsy. Only God what would I do on Earth & she in her grave. My God do spare her. Love her support her in her sickness. O if I could only see her. She writes me good Letters now as ever.
Had an interesting general class at night. I didn't enjoy speaking in class as I used to because I am not allowed now to be sincere in my exercises. Fanny Tomlin said once to me that her ideal of a class meeting was lovely to her; her experience in them - ridiculous. I begin to sympathize in this with her also.